Oh how I have neglected this blog sight over the past days. So much has happened but I think I am on the upward swing and road to recovery.
Had to have a blood transfusion two Saturday's ago because my red blood count was so low and mainly because I had Home for the Holiday's coming up on the 23rd and I knew I needed added strength quickly. The transfusion was quite an experience which I am not eager to repeat soon. Think it was the hospital and me being spoiled because of the good care at the Allison Cancer Center. Let's just say I will do things differently next time! The blood did the trick and made me have immediate energy and I felt 110% better quickly. After 9 hours in the hospital that was a good thing.
The best thing of all though was that Weslee, Shiloh and Zach surprised me and came in on Friday night so ALL my babies were in the hospital room with me. I am sure the staff was ready to kill us but they just kept the door shut and never said a word. We had a sweet time together. Thanks to Zach who kept baby Shiloh at home all day, he even went to the grocery store and had supper ready for us when we finally got home. What a blessing that was!
Wes and I have so enjoyed the visits of Marshall, Weslee, Shiloh and the short one from Zach when he brought the girls up and then had to leave to work. Having them here to join Melissia was better than any blood transfusion I could have had. Our house is severely quiet now and we miss them all so much. Thank God for such a sweet family everyday-we are so blessed!
I haven't been able to have chemo for the passed few weeks-first my red blood count was too low, then it recovered because of the transfusion-now my white blood count is at a 2 and should be at a 5. My bone marrow just got hit really hard by the first round of chemo and can't seem to jump start again. This Dr. visit she put me on shots for 5 days straight and then we will try again. Shots should jump start the bone marrow to start producing again and not be lazy-if not Dr. Carr recommended we stop and call it done! She said sometimes as Drs. they work so hard to get rid of the cancer that vital organs are harmed in the process and the bone marrow is definitely that-if it is permanently damaged it could run the risk of leukemia later on and I don't want that. She said the first four should have gotten all the stray cells and they would keep checking for a recurrence! I so trust her and it all makes sense. The way I look at it is that God knows if I need anymore and if I do He will make a way and I am trusting Him! I am ready to be done with all of this-soon and very soon!
I have had nothing but peace throughout the entire process and know that is because my Jesus goes before me and the decisions are made before I get there-praise Him for that! I continue to feel His strength and gentle prodding every step of the way and when I think, NO MORE, He says not your choice my child, it's mine!
You the sovereign Lord, come with power, and Your arm rules for You. Your reward is with You, and Your recompense accompanies You. You tend Your flock like a shepherd: You gather the lambs in Your arms and carry them close to your heart; You gently lead those that have young. (Isa. 40:10-11) Lord I know I am your lamb and I am so thankful that you never grow weary of carrying me! We are almost done, just a little while longer. Praise you Jesus, you never give up!
God is good-----------------all the time! susan
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