I got to come home last Friday and was oh so excited to see my home and sleep in my own bed with my man once again. I have felt wonderful and am able to be in full swing again for a while. Even put in a few hours at work. Just poop out fast but a nap does wonders.
We are remodeling our kitchen so my house is a wreck but how exciting to know what it will look like when it is done. So blessed to be able to redo at this point in our lives.
I have an appointment in Dallas on Monday, August 8 with the transplant doctors and team for lots of tests on every part of my body. I am anticipating getting a transplant date at that time. Hopefully it will be really soon because I am ready to get this begun so I can be on the road to recovery. Had a long visit with Dr. Carr on Monday at my appointment about what to expect during the transplant and recovery. I would lie if I said I wasn't anxious or let's just be honest down right scarred about some aspects of the transplant. She reminded me there would be really down days unlike ones I have had already, meaning they would be worse. I can't even imagine that but I just have to know that God has brought me this far not to abanden me but to hold me even higher so that I can take whatever is handed to me. Again, I know that prayer will be a huge thing for me and I have a tremendous group of people who are prayer warriors unlike any other. I am one blessed woman and know that they have prayed me through many dark days and nights in the past.
It is also difficult to think I will be away from my Midland family and friends for as long as 2 months. That makes me sad and long to see them already and that time is not here yet. Seems so long to be in a strange hospital and city. I am blessed to have Weslee, my middle daughter, and her family and Marshall, my son there in Dallas so I will be able to see familiar faces during the week. I can't imagine being away from Wes during the week but he must work. I can't tell you how much I do love that man and how calming he is to me at stressful times. What a gift he was from the good Lord-thank you Lord, thank you, thank you!
As I face the next few weeks and months I come to you Lord, in prayer and I ask You now to let Your peace, God, which transcends all understanding, guard my heart and my mind in Christ Jesus (Gal 6:9). I know without that peace I will not be able to complete this journey in the manner God wants me to. I allows this journey and I want to be able to come out on the other end knowing I made Him proud to call me His child.
(Ps 21:11-13) Though my enemy plots evil against me and devises wicked schemes, he will not succeed if I am walking with You, O God, You will make him turn his back when You aim at him with drawn bow. Be exalted, O Lord, in Your strength! I will sing and praise Your might.
(Ps 20:5) Lord God, I will shout for joy when You make me victorious, and I will lift up a banner in the name of my God! Please, Lord, grant these requests!
Lord my banner is ready and I am ready to shout and sing so could You please pick me up and carry me through these coming weeks. Give me strength greater than any I have ever seen. Take my fear, Lord and turn it in to shear courage to face the down days and praises when the days are good. Let me never forget who I belong to and that you are in control of every minute and every day I face. You have been there already and prepared the way-help me to walk in it!
Good is good------------all the time!
